Emotionless

Sometimes being too strong makes me turn to be emotionless one.

I feel the sadness, but I won't cry.

I feel the pain, but I won't feel the hurt.

Everything that seems bitter, I won't to think about it.

I feel the loneliness, and it most of the time.

I never have special boyfriends, and my life is still perfect.

I making friends, comes and go, doing stupid things together, laugh often, hang out etc. And yes, they make my life more colorful.

But when it comes to share about the feelings, and showing the weaknesses I have they always told me,

"You're strong. You can do it"

And they make me thinks that they forget I have feelings too.

But maybe, because I am too strong, the word sadness does not include in my dictionary.

Hey, some people will laugh or take it easy when I'm really in darkness.

Footnote: I'm searching for the soulmate that will listen & understand me too, as well I did listen & understand him. You know, I can't be too long stay with the one who never listen back to me.