Happy Flying!

Ema terbang ke pangkuan suami hari ini. Mungkin ketika entri ini ditulis, beliau sedang berada di dalam flight menuju destinasi suatu kehidupan baru di United Kingdom bersama encik suami. Semoga selamat sampai sahabatku!

 

Tak perlu nak rasa sedih kerana ini kebahagiannya. Doaku mudah mudahan keduanya cekal & tabah hidup di rantau orang. Paling penting, bawa lah pulang anak comel bila pulang ke tanah air nanti! Hihi.

 

But I bet, I gonna miss her much. Walaupun dah jarang contact, tapi masih ada sekali sekala bertanya khabar. Cuma aku, sibuk lebih sikit dari dia. Tambah tambah sejak dah praktikal ni tiada kemudahan public transport memang nak tanak duduk je lah diam diam kalau takde sape yang sudi nak ambik. Huuuuuuu.

 

Harap harap ema akan rajin update facebook atau sekali sekala mengirim sms dari tanah London. Auwwww…..kaye sangat lah kan!

 

Heee. Rindu. Tapi gembira melihat kebahagiaannya

 

 

Farewell, 16092011 :’)

Thinking

It's a lonely night at home. Lying on a bed, waiting for nothing. Thinking.

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Friendship. Everybody have their own besties isn't it? And best friend is a choice. We choose and we determine who we want to be our best friend....forever. Who we want to trust, who we want to be with. And me, I think I have some. Some who stays and some who left. It's life.

And me myself, maybe not the one who good enough to be someone best friend. or to be specifically, YOUR best friend. I am me. The one who can speak without taking a breath just to talk everything in my mind, what I feel and what I face. The one who can listen the same stories with a boring face but still keep listening and trying her best to give a great advice even she's maybe didn't follow what she had advise others. ba-ha-ha. The one can suddenly remain silent and then suddenly appear just to know what was going on in her bff's life. The one who can be great, and more to be bad. Maybe.

Thank you for accepting me as one of a good friend in this short lifetime. Thanks for guides me to the true path until I can be who I am today. Thanks for all the cherish moments we have shared, thanks for all the laughs and tears that we had along our journey. I do love you with all my heart even maybe I have been so far away from your life.

Frankly speaking, I'm thinking about one. That makes me sometimes feel mad at myself for thinking about the one who maybe already decided to leave me. Ohh I'm not writing to spread to the world how bad she is, or how pity I am. I'm just thinking about friendship. How far you can go to accept someone who at first is a stranger to be your forever friends. How long? She has stopped and leave me without any clue. and yes, it hurt myself each time I'm thinking about it. Even in my busiest life, I do think about this. And, I have e.n.o.u.g.h.

Enough for this. Enough for everything. My tears is enough for this. It just breaks my heart. Really. All my messages were never been replied since 4 months ago. My calls never been hang up. Never text me back to explain.

Please. Face the reality. Face this cruel world. Face this injustice life. And thats why we need a best friend. To support, and to give strength. Not only the love from a man who we never known will be our future husband or not. And if I'm not the one, please choose somebody else and proof to the world, that you can stand to fight. To be someone who have the strongest heart with a brilliant mind and incredible person.

Don't follow my track. Don't stalk my life. It will just hurt you to see my happy life with my other forever best friends. And it maybe hurt you more knowing that how closed we have been. I'm not leaving you. I just trying to give you space if we can still continue to be a best friend as we always be. But it seems to be nothing. And it will ends here. I know you will never response. And I hope you will stop read my blog. Trust me. It will hurt you more.

Thanks for everything you have done for me. For good and bad.

Goodbye.


footnote: I maybe never been in love with a man because of my thoughts but I always be in love with my best friends. I feel what loves it. I treasure them all even maybe I don't have any idea how to appreciate them. It's your choice to stay or to leave by my side. I'm okay with both. And I will be okay with which ever you prefer. Love you much. Take care for all.

Dunia Survival Sudah Bermula

Dah masuk musim exhausted overdose. Hari ni dah register kolej tapi tak pindah barang lagi la. Dapat bilik level 4 again, selang sebuah je dengan bilik roomate lame. bilik jauh ke hujung dekat dengan fakulti engine as compared to sem lepas agak lah dekat dengan tangga nak keluar. mula2 rasa macam sedih la jugak dapat bilik jauh kott..level 4 tuh tak lah kisah sangat sebab dah kate rayuan kan jangan nak lebih2. tp bila fikir balik, bagus gak dapat bilik sekarang ni. at least takde la nampak sangat bayangan roomate sem lepas kan. bila lalu bilik 3b0439 tadi rasa macam tacing plak haa..

tension betol. mana2 bahagian kat uitm ni semua ade kenangan dengan diorang. tu belum lagi jejak fakulti engine tuh. nak sedih tak boleh. nak gembira lagi macam tipu. plain je rasa. petang tadi pegi seksyen 7 lagi la rasa macam sebak. sebelum ni kalau pegi sini selalunye dengan diorang, n plus luqman kadang2. beli stationery, makan2, jalan2, discuss pasal permata. alahai. terbayang bayang. agaknye cam ni la kot kan feeling yang fik selalu rasa. yang aku selalu buat2 tanak rasa walaupun memang tengah je berlaku dalam diri. sebab lagi sedih jadinya kalau sama2 sedih. macam kelakar je haa bila lalu kedai cd ternampak bayang luqman dengan nadia suka gado2. pastu pernah sekali aku dengan nadia meroyan2 kat situ sebab permata. nampak bayang je la kan. orangnye takde pun. lepas tu makan kat barra tapi kali ni bukan dengan nadia n luqman lagi. teringat2 nadia yang selalu tak habis makan, lepas tu luqman akan kutuk2. luqman suka makan roti naan pastu kitorang pau die. eheh. dah takde dah semua ni ye?

s.e.d.i.h.

dah terasa kesukaran & cabaran2 yang akan mendatang bila dah jadi student part 5 ni. dengan high expectations dari lecturer lagi la buat terasa cuak. adoiii ape ni..tak start lagi dah negatif. tampa laju laju kang. Allah dah permudahkan jalan pun boleh rasa lemah semangat lagi ke? astaghfirullah. kalau nak compare aku dengan mas, lagi kesian kat die. tadi terpandang raut wajah die yang selalu tenang & selamba tu aku plak yang terasa tabahnya hati die. mas tak dapat kolej sem ni so sama macam aku die kene merayu. dia buat rayuan lagi awal dari aku tapi sampai skang still tak dapat result. kesian. takde tempat nak pergi. first day dia terpaksa dok hotel dekat ngan jakel tuh. skarang tumpang rumah kawan kat sek 7 plak. dulu masa aku melalui hidup macam tu mane tahan kot. meroyan je manjang. tapi mas memang cool habis walaupun die sangat susah hati. makan tak lalu. register course tak settle. banyaknya dugaan dia. Ya Allah, permudahkan lah. harap2 ade rezeki die esok. aku lak rasa sebak tengok orang terlebih cool ni. huhu.

kena cari ayat penyembuh semangat. tetibe rasa down sampai kerak bumi dah ni. T___T

kesah spageti :)

hari ni aku n ja g umah ema. semata nak masak spaghetti. plan da lama. tapi after 2 weeks baru ade masa nak masak. yelah. masak spageti je da 2 jam. haha

xde la menarek mana pun cuma nak bagitahu macam best sangat kerjasama masak masak kat dapo. wahaaa. x pena pena pon laa nak rasa before this kan. agak lama gak la nak masak since semua cam x pro agy kan. aiseh. then siap wat 'meatball' lagi weh. x ley blah. idea aku tuh. ngeh3. tp x lah sehebat pizza hut ke ape kan tapi yang penting housemates ema cam suka lah kan 'meatball' aku tuh. haha

pastu air plaks wat laici susu. sumpah la sedap gile. ja buat. hoho. boleh dah la nak kawen pasni :p

mood xde lah skang nak bebel panjang2. isk. tuh je la nak btau. gembira dapat spent masa dengan sahabat sahabat. oh nadia xde sebab dia pose :)

bye.